Just before Una was born, Nevada and I went out and bought a video camera. It's shiny silver, has a fold out view-screen, a bunch of little red and green lights, and a lens that makes things bigger and smaller when you press two buttons. For months now that's really all I've known about it. It's the easiest little machine to use, but somehow whenever I pick it up I start to feel like I'm on live television. I have a great deal of difficulty filming anything, because I know that at some point I'm going to watch what I've captured and I'll be instantly compelled to erase it. You see, this little gizmo has exposed me to myself in a way I wasn't really prepared for. I tick. I tick all the time, and I notice it. My friends and family tell me they don't. They are of course lying. The camera doesn't lie though, so the first time I played a video that I had taken I had to turn it off. I was horrified. This is what I sound like to other people? At that moment I was certain I would never leave my apartment again. I had carefully avoided being captured on tape for many years now. Then I went out and bought a gizmo, the sole purpose of which is to record our voices and faces for all time. I ought to have spent the money on a vacation. We could have used it to pay down the car. Maybe we would have put it in the bank. No we wouldn't have put it in the bank. So now I have this digital video camera, that once had the potential to be a very nice vacation, car, or bank deposit, and I'm learning to live with it. It's brutally honest with me, and I have to say, sometimes quite rude. It tells me when I've forgotten to shave, when I've put on a few more pounds, and when I'm just plain annoying. I appreciate it's honesty, but sometimes I'd just like it to flatter me a little. After-all I did choose it over a trip and a bigger bank balance. It's the most ungrateful resident in this apartment, next to the scale that mocks me on a regular basis, and the alarm clock that I've lost somewhere in a closet that beeps at 1630 every day.
These first two videos were shot by Nevada. It was early in the morning, and I was still in bed, safely out of range of the microphone. They're the kind of video a proud parent bores his friends with, but maybe my family will appreciate them. That is of course if I can manage to post them in a useable format.
The first one is my favorite. Una has outgrown her bouncy chair. I know, she's only five months old, but it's sagging pretty low these days, and she really prefers to sit up anyway. So Nevada gave her a specialized play facilitator, that props her in an upright position, makes her feel safe and contained, and is easily replaced if it is damaged. It's a cardboard box with a blanket in it, and Una prefers it to both the play-blanket, and the exer-saucer.
Una likes to laugh, especially if someone will laugh with her. Some days it goes on for ten minutes at a time. So far it's her best trick.